Just a little update...

I haven't blogged in forever it feels like...and I'm sitting at work trying to find reasons to not leave early - so here's a little update for anyone who wanted to know:

I'm still working at Ventana (an apartment complex in RB). I'm still taking classes through Ashford (yay for education!). I still have Tucker. I still have my truck. I still go to Palomar singles ward (someday I'll graduate. even if it takes me another 6 years...). I still want to go to England again - but the visa situation with the UK hasn't changed yet (fingers crossed...). I'm still in love with a boy who doesn't want to date me anymore. TMI? Oh well. I may or may not cry about it. A lot. I'm working on it.

I want to send a shout out to all my married friends who may take their spouses for granted. Be so happy that you're out of the dating game. It sucks so bad sometimes. Scratch that - most of the time. So, be thankful for your husband or wife...because even if he leaves the toilet seat up, or if she doesn't clean up as frequently as you'd like, or if he leaves his stinky socks on your bedroom floor, or if she whines about feeling pudgy and still eats that last brownie...you still have him or her. And you know they love you. And you don't have to feel rejected if someone doesn't call after that first date, or feel nervous about never finding someone, or feel depressed about being alone. Or feel even MORE depressed about having perfectly wonderful people wanting to date you and being infuriatingly unable to get rid of feelings for someone who doesn't feel the same. Go give your spouse kiss, and feel lucky. And put the brownie down.

I think I haven't been blogging because I don't want to burden my fellow bloggers with the less-than-cheerful thoughts clattering around in me. But... I feel a little bit better now than I did when I started typing. And it's 5. And I didn't leave early. And I'm not crying. This is a win in my book.

Thanks for listening.

New Beginnings

Everyone breathe a sigh of relief with me!

*whew*

I have been struggling a lot lately with some big decisions, and have made quite a few of them this week. Want to hear?

1. I put in notice to my job - I'm finished at ClientRunner.
2. I decided to move to San Diego this Fall.
3. I committed to teach piano starting in September at a little studio down there.
4. I am no longer planning on going to business school and getting my MBA anytime soon.

Wow! Pretty big, right?

Decisions I still need to make:

1. When I'm actually moving
2. What I want to get my Master's in
3. Where I want to go for school
4. What the mink is happening with Jan during all of this

I am really excited, just thinking about all of this. After I didn't get into Oxford, I had to come to the hard realization that I won't be able to go to business school (at least to any of the programs I want) for at least 2 or 3 years. It's so frustrating to think of that!

I've felt a lot lately like my life is on hold, and I am excited to say that I am no longer waiting for things to happen to me. I'm just going to start doing. Woo!

So because of that, I want to change my direction and decide on a program that lets me go to school right away (or next fall at the latest), and once I graduate I'm qualified for something. That way I can start working immediately, doing something I like, and even after my kids are gone I can just start once again. With business, there is so much building up/experience-gaining that needs to take place in order to be successful, and I would have to just start over again once my kids are gone. It just doesn't fit in with my other life plans.

So options I'm thinking about but don't know much about?
1. Physician's Assistant
2. Health Administration
3. Education Administration (This one is in the lead right now.)

And a few others I've already crossed off the list. I'm trying to come up with other options that would fit the whole "School now, be certified and can work even after a kid break" mentality.

Pretty exciting, right?

I think so, too. I'm ready to not be the sprout anymore, waiting to grow. Let's just get on with it!

P.S. Yes, I am teaching piano, and YES, I would love to teach your child and your friend's children and anyone else you know that wants to learn! We are starting the first week of September, and so any and all references you can give me would be awesome! I'm ready to start building up the students. Email me at kristinaschro@gmail.com or leave a comment if you or anyone you know might be interested.

PLUG!

Night Owl

It is really late.

My parents are about an hour away, Calee is a few more hours away, and Nikki and the girls get here tomorrow afternoon. And we are all staying right here, in my apartment.

Do you know what I should be doing right now? Cleaning everything.

Do you know what I am doing right now? Blogging. Writing in my journal. Watching Ace of Cakes. Basically anything besides cleaning.

Have you ever been so tired emotionally that you can feel it in your bones? That's where I am.

And do you know what I do when my bones are tired?


I go to bed and hope my family won't judge me for not having things ready for them.