Tuesday, January 20, 2009

No Subject

My heart hurts.

It was kind of a gross day. I'm tired and cranky and confused about my life. I think I'm going to try to stop planning so much, because every time I find a plan that I feel comfortable with and even happy about, something crazy happens to ruin it.

I've found that a good method of dealing with that is denial. I just pretend like that was what I had planned all along, go with it. Which is fine until days like today, when it all hits me. Then I feel really, wholly and deeply tired. Emotional exhaustion is a strange experience. You would expect it to be really intense. I find it numbing.

Nikki was on American Idol tonight and it was awesome. Brooke writes weird, weird stuff on her blog and I don't really get it. Calee drew me a really nice picture down there.

Love them.

Random. But still good.


Chris N said...

Sorry to hear about your day, I hope tomorrow is an improvement :)

Katie said...

So sorry you're feeling blue. At least you have the coolest family to make up for that ( ;

Okay wait I just watched American Idol (Albeit not that closely since I was getting kids ready for bed) and I did not see Nikki. Did they show her singing? I have it recorded so I wanna go back and see where she was!

Nikki said...

Aw Shmae. Life can be rough. But the yuckiness comes and goes. And thanks for the American Idol shout out. haha. So ridiculously embarrassing.

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