Monday, October 26, 2009

Today is a Blah day

I said earlier that I've been having good constants with bad moments every once in a while - which is really a relief from the opposite situation. 

I'm having one of those blah moments today though. I had another nightmare last night and it just has me in the strangest mood. 

My heart is tired. And my insides feel a little lonely.  

and I know that you had a hard weekend. And normally I would feel a little vindicated and hope that hard weekend made you miss me more and feel stupid for not having me there to support you. 

But I don't feel that way. 

I just feel sad for you. And sad for us. 

We were thinking about getting married this weekend while you had a break. Isn't that weird? Instead we will both be going on dates with strangers, pretending like we are normal.

Not that I would change it. I'm glad we aren't getting married. It's just a really sad story. 

That's all.

And by the way - I am normal. I just have not normal moments like this one. How nice that they are simply moments. I don't think you are there yet. I don't think you'll be there for a long time, actually.

I'm going to make a new playlist to get me out of this funk. Any suggestions? I need fun songs that I can dance to in my car while I drive to work.




Anonymous said...

"Wake Up" Arcade Fire

"If Work Permits" The Format

"By the Way that They Dance" Jump, Little Children

"Invincible" Muse

"Fooling Yourself" Styx

Op 23, Prelude #2 in B flat minor - Rachmaninov

They are all good, you should check them out if you haven't heard them. Especially the Jump, Little Children one.

Anonymous said...

Love Today - Mika
Starlight - Muse

These helped me though my recent funk.

Anonymous said...

Haha. After I suggested Mika in that last comment I have been rockin it since. I am in the best mood. Grace Kelly, Love today, and Relax (take it easy) will put most people in a great mood. Just sayin'...

LazyRainbow said...
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LazyRainbow said...

"ABC" - Jackson 5
"More Than A Feeling" - Boston
"Digital Love" - Daft Punk
"Tiny Dancer" - Elton John
"Walking On A Dream" - Empire of the Sun
"Lust For Life" - Girls
"Switched On" - Islands
ok im done before i get too crazy :)

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